Homeless.

The house I’m living in has been sold, and I am entitled to very little notice/tenancy rights given the contract I signed initially. As a result I have now one week to find somewhere else to live and move into it. As I am poor, badly employed and mentally ill I am struggling with finding somewhere, either through being too anxious to look/meet people, having such a small budget or having to work my stupid midday hours. As a result, I’m fraught with worry, barely sleeping and getting worse by the day. Halp

Admittedly this is just a really stressful position, and even your sane and well employed housemate is finding this period to be panic-inducing

So mentally, the fact that you’re even managing to get to work and to view some places is good

And I understand that might not seem enough, but you are doing excellently to work beyond your normal limits

You are very lucky to have a great set of friends who have all offered sofas and spare rooms and even to let you have their bed, so you will not be out on the streets

But being dependent on others makes you feel super guilty, it’s how things started to go wrong with last partner

Remember that if you can find somewhere in the next week, that it’s likely you’ll actually be in a better situation, i.e. you’ll have WiFi and a full-sized oven and maybe even a Washing Machine. Imagine how nice it’ll be to have a real life again

This was probably the worst time for my mother to have a downswing. She is saying that as children we treat her like shit and only use her when we need something, this means that any hope of asking for financial or moral support in this move has been taken away; I can’t allow myself to walk into a situation where she has a reason to scream at me

Remember that your mother’s mood swings, whilst upsetting, are now no longer your problem, the beauty of moving out in the first place. It may not be fun staying on people’s floors, but at least you won’t get called a “disgrace” on a regular basis

Through all her bullshit, she is maddened because she wants to hear from us more often, if you actually went to her in need, she would do her best to support you (though financially she’s not much better off than you are)

She loves you, you know that, she says it and shows it. She just blows up a lot as well

Be thankful that you had the opportunity to stop living with her, you are at least independent in that sense